Bread: Beast or Beauty?

Bread: Beast or Beauty?

I am challenging my perfectionist self to post my writing even if I do not feel that it is polished “enough”. Recently I have been wanting to post more about the way recovery from an eating disorder is a continual process. Although I consider myself fully recovered, there are still small ways my history with anorexia shows up in my life and allows me to find the beauty in small moments. So, a first bite:   Bread: Beast or Beauty?  Sitting on my new friend’s grad student apartment couch late on a Friday night I truly enjoyed bread for the first time since before my relationship with Ed four years previously. My teeth sunk into the warm soft focaccia sweet with the flavor of olive oil. The perfectly moist chunk pulled apart in my mouth; between crumbling and melting the gluten particles filled that craving for substantial food. This is food with weight. There’s nothing quite like bread, especially homemade bread. It’s hearty, delicate, and savory. It is filling and fulfilling. I had two pieces, choosing the ones with the most tomato and onion on top. The moment was magical and pivotal. Earlier that night I had sunk my fingers into the warm dough to shape and spread. As we talked of previous bread-making experiences I flashed back to slicing my mother’s freshly baked bread that filled the silent morning air of my adolescent years with rich sent. I cut a slice from the loaf so thin that I could barely spread the miniscule amount of mustard I allowed myself onto the fibers and assemble a small sandwich. By...
Being my own Valentine!

Being my own Valentine!

At the Mountain Rose Café in Winter Park, Colorado where they don’t have waffles (as I had hoped) or the delicious looking Cinnamon Roll French Toast on the menu, but I’m happy anyway! It’s Valentine’s Day! Even though I’m single, its one of my favorite holidays! It seems that just as taking myself out for Valentine’s Day has become a tradition, I believe not getting what I expect is also part of the custom. Or maybe that just life! So…normal French Toast instead of Waffles. With sunshine on my back, a warm cup of decaf coffee, a pounded copper table, walls filled with quotes, and couples full of love all around me, I breathe. This is what life is about, the little cafes, the lives shining around me. After spending a morning writing about love and listening to stories of love, I want to interview every couple in the café. “Excuse me. Will you tell me your love story?” Sometimes that is all I want to be, a love researcher collecting stories! However, today isn’t about who I want to be but who I am and loving that person. I remember the first time I heard the phrase “Love the one you’re with.” Since I wasn’t dating anyone at the time, just as I’m not dating anyone now, I brushed it away. A single girl’s coping mechanism of “who cares!” It was later that my mother reframed the quote for me by reminding me that it is always applicable because there is always someone we are with, ourselves! Therefore, we can always love the one we’re with! That has...
Scrumptious Summer Spontaneity: Blue Cheese Zucchini/Squash Scramble

Scrumptious Summer Spontaneity: Blue Cheese Zucchini/Squash Scramble

A 1/2 hour between jobs and a desire for a meaningful delicious lunch? Impossible? Here’s how I’ve done it! Blue Cheese Zucchini/Squash Scramble Ingredients: 2 eggs 1 tortilla, cut into strips chunk of yellow squash, chopped chunk of zucchini, chopped chunk of hot pepper (or sweet bell pepper if you prefer) olive oil salt pepper chopped basil and parsley (or whatever fresh herbs you might have) other spices (optional) blue cheese crumbles chunk of tomato lettuce What to do: Heat olive oil in a skillet while chopping the vegetables (squash, zucchini, and pepper), add to pan with basil and parsley, and sauté. As the veggies sauté, beat eggs together with tortilla strips, blue cheese and spices. Add egg mixture to the pan of veggies once tender. I originally meant to make an omelet, but when the flipping didn’t go well it became scramble! Magic! When eggs reach desired gooeyness (I don’t like too gooey so I cook for a little extra), place on plate with lettuce. Garnish with tomato and extra blue cheese. Enjoy! Took approx. a 1/2 hour to make, eat, and write this post! Eating well doesn’t need to take all...
Scrumptious Summer Spontaneity: Glorious Granola

Scrumptious Summer Spontaneity: Glorious Granola

Ok, maybe I’m getting carried away with the alliteration! This granola is glorious. It’s taken much experimentation of bake time, order of ingredient addition, and flavors to come up with this delicious recipe. Enjoy! Cinna-Cran-Walnut Granola Materials: 5 cups Oats ¼ cup Wheat Germ ¼ cup ground Flax Seed 1 cup chopped Walnuts Pinches of ground Ginger, ground Nutmeg, and Allspice Couple large shakes Cinnamon Pinch of Salt ½ cup Coconut Oil ½ cup Honey 1 cup cranberries (the orange flavored ones are especially good!) Note: Remember that all of my measurements are approximate; I almost never use measuring instruments! Opps, I forgot to photograph the oil and honey! Protocol: 1)    Preheat oven to 350F. 2)    Place 1 cup oats into a blender and pulse a few times to obtain a chunky flour. 3)    In bowl 1 mix newly created oat flour with other oats, wheat germ, flax seed, walnuts, spices and salt. DO NOT add cranberries unless you want a cheek workout every time you eat your delicious granola with…rock hard cranberries (I learned this from personal experience!) 4)    In bowl 2 melt coconut oil and honey 5)    Dump the sticky liquid in bowl 2 onto the oat mixture in bowl 1. 6)    Mix together thoroughly. I suggest using your hands for mixing in order to assure the penetrance of the oil into the oats and to fully experience the glorious texture. Don’t forget to wash your hands first. 7)    Cover 2 cookies sheets with granola mix approximately ¾ inch thick. 8)    Bake for 18min. Do not mix. 9)    Remove from oven and allow to sit for 15-20...