Let’s Celebrate Dia de la Recuperacion!

Let’s Celebrate Dia de la Recuperacion!

Una merienda de Celebración: Día de la Recuperación!

 

(Scroll down for English!)

 

Ayer tenia la oportunidad celebrar cinco anos de recuperación de anorexia nervosa con una merienda con amigos, vulnerabilidad, y mucha torta.

 

Aunque estaba nerviosa antes de que leyera lo que había escrito para la ocasión toda la experiencia—hablando de mi experiencia, promesando públicamente respetar mi misma para siempre, escuchando a otros hablando de las cosas que hicieron por lo cuales están orgullosas, tomando un momento de silencio, y apreciando comida rica con una sonrisa grande—lleno mi corazón y mi alma. Me hizo acordar que todo es posible!

 

Aca esta lo que lei ayer:

 

Por qué estamos aca: Mi historia

 

Hace 5 años sali de una negación profunda cuando me di cuenta de que tuve anorexia nervosa. Aunque no era consciente de eso, me había metido en un trastorno alimenticio por casi un año. Estaba muy preocupada por mi peso y la comida. Ejercitaba demasiado. No comia y no sentía hambre. Menti a mis amigas, a mi familia, y a mi misma para no comer. Pensaba que era muy saludable. Sin embargo, también me odiaba mi misma, no podía sentir emociones, no quería hacer las cosas que antes habían llenado mi vida con alegría, no tenia energía para la vida…en fin no era yo.

 

Mi nombre significa vida en griego. Mientras tuve anorexia la vida—la Zoe—de mi ser estaba achicando. Hoy quiero recordar y perdonar esa chica…estaba equivocada, tenia mucho para aprender, pero la perdono y la amo totalmente.

 

Hace cinco años (casi exactamente) empezaba una aventura que me iba a cambiar totalmente. Cuando empece la recuperación sabia que podría usar la misma fuerza que había usado para no comer y negarme la vida, para mejorar; podría usar esa energía para salir de debajo de la presión del trastorno y quitar la voz del trastorno de mi cabeza. Sabía que podría hacerlo y sabía que iba a ser muy difícil. No sabia todo lo que iba a aprender y que después de cinco años me sentiría tan agradecida.

 

(Ahora frases condicionales…porque son mis favoritos y quiero practicarlas ☺ )

Si yo no hubiera tenido anorexia, nunca habría aprendido y conocido a mi misma tan profundamente…la recuperación me enseño escucharme a mi misma, me enseño de mis frialdades y fortalezas, me enseño a vivir de mis principios, y respetarme mi misma.

Si no hubiera tenido anorexia no habría conocido al mundo de salud mental y el poder de la terapia, no habría cambiando mi carrera a psicología.

Si no hubiera tenido anorexia no habría hecho un monton de cosas ni conocido un monton de gente increíble.

Quizas no habría conocido como amar mi cuerpo, a mi misma, y mi vida como las amo ahora. Definitivamente seria otra persona. Por eso—aunque no me gustaría experimentarlo de nuevo y aunque no quiero que ningún otro experimente un trastorno alimenticio nunca—yo estoy RE agradecida de haber tenido anorexia y—mas importante—haber mejorado con la ayuda de las personas increíbles en mi vida y de mi misma.

Mas que nada aprendi que yo puedo…yo soy poderosa. Si yo hice esto, si yo me recupere de anorexia para reencontrar a mi misma—mi vida—mi Zoe—yo puedo hacer cualquier otra cosa! Cinco anos es mucho. Pero también es nada. Espero tener muchos años mas de esta aventura de esta recuperada y seguir recuperando…es un proceso eterno…es parte de mi vida…es parte de quien soy.

 

Ahora quiero declara una promesa a mi misma:

 

Zoe Elizabeth Vlastos,

 

Te prometo respetarte totalmente…cuerpo, mente, y alma. Te alimentare con comida saludable y rica. Te vestiré en ropa comoda. Usare tu cuerpo para hacer ejercicio que queres hacer…afuera, en el sol, bailando, llena de alegría. Te escucho siempre y cumpliré tus deseos. Te confiare en todo…seguiré los sueños de tu corazón y alma. Sentare con lo que sentís y no intentare esconder emociones desagradable. Te perdonare cuando equivocas o fracasas. Sos humana…va a pasar. Pondre alrededor tuyo a otros que te hacen sentir bien y que te levantan. Siempre siempre siempre te amare. Te ame, te amare, y te amo por quien fuiste, quien seras, y quien sos. Sos perfectamente imperfecto.

Te amo mi vida…mi Zoe,

Zoe E Vlastos (24-04-16)

 

Otros:

Ahora me gustaría tener un momento de silencio para pensar de todos los otros que lucharon contra trastornos alimenticios y no ganaron. Tambien pido que respiras con esperanza para todos que siguen luchando hoy. Cerramos los ojos un minuto.

Ustedes:

Antes de que empezamos merendar (la parte mas importante!!) me gustaría ir en una ronda y dar cada persona la oportunidad decir algo por lo cual esta orgullosa. Cada uno de ustedes hizo algo—quizas algo grande, quizás algo pequeño—en tu vida. Si no queres decir nada podrias pasar, pero les doy el desafio decir algo!

Brindis:

A ustedes!! Muchas gracias para venir y celebrar con migo!!

A COMER!!

 

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A Teatime of Celebration: Recovery Day

 

Yesterday I had the opportunity to celebrate 5 years of recovery from anorexia nervosa with a teatime with friends, vulnerability, and lots of torte.

 

Although I was nervous before reading what I had written for the occasion (in Spanish above and translated into English below), the entire experience—talking about my experience, publically promising to respect myself always, listening to other talk about accomplishment they are proud of, taking a moment of silence, and appreciating good food with a huge smile—filled my heart and my soul with joy. It reminded me that anything is possible!

 

 

Why we are here: My Story

 

Five years ago a stepped out of a deep denial when I realized that I had anorexia nervosa. Although I was not conscious of it at the time I had slipped into an eating disorder for almost a year. I was very worried about my weight and food. I exercised excessively. I did not eat and I did not feel hunger. I lied to my friends, my family, and myself to avoid eating. And the entire time I thought I was being healthy. Nevertheless, I also hated myself, I could not feel emotions, I did not want to do the things that had previously filled my life with joy, I did not have energy for life…overall, I wasn’t myself.

 

In Greek my name means life. While I had anorexia the life—the Zoe—of my being was shrinking. Today I want to remember and forgive the girl who stepped unknowingly into the eating disorder…she was confused, she had a lot to learn…but I forgive and love her entirely.

 

Five years ago (almost exactly) I started an adventure that would change me entirely. When I started recovery I knew that I could use the same strength I had used to not eat and deny myself life, to get better; I could use that energy to step out from under the pressure of the disorder and rid myself of the disorder in my head. I know I could do it and I knew it would be very difficult. I did not know all that I would learn and that five years later I would be so grateful.

 

(I decided to practice conditional phrases in Spanish and since this is translated from Spanish I guess I get to practice conditional phrases in English as well )

 

I am extremely grateful because:

 

If I had not had anorexia I would not have learned about and understood myself as deeply…recovery has taught me to listen to myself, it taught me about my weaknesses and strengths, it taught me to live from my values, and respect myself.

If I had not had anorexia, I would not have come to know the world of mental health and the power of therapy, and I would not have changed my career path to psychology.

If I had not had anorexia, I would not have started a blog about my experience.

If I had not had anorexia, I would not have done many things or met many amazing people.

 

Perhaps I would not have learned how to love my body, myself, and my life as I love them now. For sure, I would be a different person. Therefore—although I definitely would never want to experience an eating disorder again and although I do not want anyone else to experience an eating disorder, ever—I am extremely grateful that I had anorexia nervosa and (much more importantly) that I recovered with the help of many amazing people in my life and the own strength.

 

More than anything I learned that I can…I am powerful. If I did this, if I recovered from anorexia to once more know myself—my life—my Zoe—I can do anything.

 

Five years is a lot. But it is also very little. I hope experience many more years living this adventure of recovery…it is a continual process…it is part of my life…it is part of who I am.

 

Now, I want to declare a promise to myself:

 

Zoe Elizabeth Vlastos,

 

I promise to respect you entirely…body, mind, and soul. I will nourish you with healthy and delicious food. I will dress you in comfortable clothing. I will use your body to exercise in ways that you desire…outside, in the sun, dancing, full of joy. I will listen to you always and fulfill your wishes. I will trust you entirely…I will follow the dreams of your heart and your soul. I will sit with what you feel and not try to hide from uncomfortable emotions. I will forgive you when you mess up or fail; you are human…it will happen. Always, always, always, I will love you. I loved you, I love you, and I will love you for who you were, who you are, and who you will be. You are perfectly imperfect.

 

I love you my life…my Zoe,

Zoe E Vlastos (24-04-16)

 

Others:

Now I would like to have a moment silence to think about all those who fought against eating disorders and did not win. I would also like to ask that we breathe with hope for those who are still fighting today. Let us close our eyes for one minute.

 

You All:

Before we begin our teatime (the most important part!), I would like to go around and give each of you the opportunity to state something you are proud of. Each one of you had done something…perhaps something big, perhaps something small…in your life. If you don’t want to say anything you can pass, however I challenge you to say something!

 

A toast:

To you all, for being here to celebrate with me today! Thank you!

 

Now, let’s eat!

 

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Photos by Mica Peker

 

 

 

 

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