Recovery from Anorexia Wholeheartedly 

We all struggle against demons on the inside. I don’t know the monsters in your head and heart. However, I do know my own and one has come in the form of anorexia nervosa.

Anorexia Nervosa is a severe mental illness characterized by distorted body image, excessive dieting leading to extreme weight loss, and a pathological fear of becoming fat.

While I now consider myself fully recovered (and have for awhile), I recognize that the disorder has left remnants clinging to my being.

 

I have learned that the unique combination of my eating disorder past, a propensity towards reflection and self-awareness, an above average understanding of eating disorders through a bio-psycho-social-spiritual model, and a desire to write provide me with a grounding framework to help others learn about eating disorders.

As Brene Brown says, “Stories are data with a soul.” I hope that my telling my stories—by allowing you into the memories of the mind and body of someone with anorexia—you will gain a greater understanding, awareness, and compassion for individuals struggling with these and other mental disorders. We all are fighting demons on the inside; while they may manifest uniquely, they do share similar roots.

 

R.A.W.

I will be sharing my recovery from anorexia in a wholehearted way. My story does not explain all eating disorders but it does give a real, authentic, and vulnerable snapshot of what it means to live with and recover from anorexia nervosa. It will be real. It will be reflective. It will be RAW.

 

 

 

 

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